Sitting here..dont know what am i doing here..

here we go again..its saturday,12 Dec 09..planning mau tingu komputer ja baini then ambil external hard disk dari kedai,but what has happened here?im sitting here alone,'harimau' d depan,duduk2 1 urang,minum tiada kawan..adui na..ni baru nama dia sad sober..haha..what is actually imdoing here?..gila2 suda ni mcm ni..

well,ari ni ada pesta makanan d Pamol Estate..mau juga p,tp masalahnya,malas..tp kalau ikut betul,jarak sandakan sama pamol lebih kurang ja (1hour)..bagus lagi p pamol,makan free..tp ntah kenapa ginawo ku ini cakap 'p la bandar'..aduina..

sekarang stuck suda d sini...mau bediri,but im enjoying myself now..cuci2 mata,tingu2 urang lalu lalang..tingu sebelah meja,ada this chinese couple bw anak makan d luar..tgk tu budak,gelap kulit..emmm..mix suda ka?..hehe..inter racial marriage..its a good thing though..so,ambil gelas,minum lagi..gerigitan suda ni hati mau minum lagi..tp jgn dulu..tahan tu hati..ngauummm...

buat loan
sa suda buat loan..personal loan..untuk apa la tu duit?..hati ku bertanya (trip2 novel la pula)..ntah la..untuk beli barang2 yang inda berfaedah la ni..wakakaka..actually,untuk masa depan juga baini..manatau mau beli barang2 kan..mana kita tau..mau buat pelaburan juga ni..hehe..monthly installment rm200 ja for x years..inda bulih cakap juga,nanti sa kena bubut urang yg inda sepaptutnya..free jak masuk news sebab kena rompak nanti..haha..

so,itu duit nanti pandai2 la mau bayar balik..jgn sembarang ja guna(pesan otakku kepada hatiku ini)..yala,yala (getus hatiku)..cewah..mcm bernovel pula..hehe..

actually,i dont really like the way we are living now..sophiscated..complicated..susah mau paham..suma pun mau pakai duit..susah..kalau tiada duit,tida bulih buat apa2..kita tetinggal dari semua aspek..trus,harga barang tiap tahun naik..gila betull!!..paling bikin sakit hati,mana2 kita p,mesti juga pakai duit..bayar parking,bayar toilet,bayar itu,bayar ini..arghh...suma pun begitu..lama2 kita pandai hilang itu joy of living..kita telampau mengejar material..arghh..sa inda mau..sa inda mau bila suda tua,bila ada suda suma trus menyesal sbb mencari masa lalu yang suda hilang..inda mau..tp inda juga bulih telampau enjoy..slalu juga sa kena kasi ingat 'masa muda la masa kumpul duit'...ya betul,tp mesti juga enjoy sikit..nanti gila..hehe..

kredit card
dapat sms dari kawan,cakap dia sedang jalan2 d city mall..cuci2 mata..gerigitan dia cakap mau shopping sbb sale d mana2..mcm mau main gores ja dia cakp..huhuhu..that y i dont want to have credit card..godaan untuk menggores telampau tinggi..nanti last2 belum dapat gaji,abis suda tu duit..baki ooo!!!...i sms to my friend 'jgn ikut hati..'..haha..nanti susah nanti..

tp sa inda ikut pula apa yg dia cakap..ekekeke..tewas juga oleh panggilan harimau..aduina..bulih ka jalan nanti ni..hehe..dpt sms dari kwn FB..tanya d mana sa..haha..ni kali tiada suda alasan ni..inda pa..jumpa ja kejap bah..tambah kenalan..harap2 inda telebih..ekekeke...

ps:start suda senaman ni..hehe..skipping and crunch..sakit badan suda..tp slow2 urang bilang..jgn telampau paksa..hehe..inda fit suda sa main bola..tula mau start senaman suda ni..ekekeke...

The Life..

Just Being Contented..

I live a simple life..i just like being simple and practical..i like to do chores and shopping and then go back straight home..i like to travel to one place,arrive there,enjoy the moment and then go back..i like simple thing..i really do..i can live the day just by playing computer games or watch tv..its really simple..coz i like simple..

but i have a complicated life..i have a broken family..i have a bad love life experience..i have so many bad memories of the past..i have so many problems..and i have a job so faraway from home.. can i be contented?

of course i can..just now,i have lunch at Mile 4 Sandakan..makan d kedai cina la..lama suda tidak singgah..and then,i sat there for about 10minutes after finishing lunch,looking around at the surroundings..i look at the environment, i look at the people, i lookat the car, i look at the girls(normal la bah kan) and i look at the restaurant owner..all have their own life..all have their own agenda..

are they happy? of course not..they have their own problem..they have their own concern..they have their own life..so why bother at others?buzzz...wrong answer my friend..we are different people but we have 1 thing in common in life..we want to have a perfect life..


I WANT EVERYTHING..

i want to be rich..i want to have big cars,i want to have a beautifull girlfriend, i want to have large house,i want to have lots of money...I WANT EVERYTHING!!!..i want all things in the world that i can have..haha..i want it all!!!

but NO, we cannot have everything..human never will be satisfied with what they have..we will never be satisfied with our own desire..trust me,coz i know..haha..

masa kecil2 dulu,sa mau ada basikal..so kena kasi basikal..bila suda ada basikal,mau motor..then mau henpon..then mau komputer..then mau laptop..last2,suma pun sa mau..i became materialistic..im not being myself anymore..i became obsessed with the worldy world things..lupa suda tujuan hidup sebenar..i became grumpy..tukar attitude jadi kasar, ego, pemarah..hahaa..menjelma jadi urang yang bukan urang..suma pun sa mau..suma pun mau dapat..i want to have everything so that i can have a perfect life..and i forgot that 1 essential of living a life..

being happy..

i want to change now..i want to be just being contented..i want to be happy as for what i have now..i want to enjoy everything that i have now..i want to be 'sederhana'..what happen after i have everything?will i be satisfied?..

and the answer is No..i will try to be happy with what i have now..and i will slowly develop myself to a perfect life..even tough not perfect,at least i enjoy my life before my last breath..

i just want it simple..